Still Busy.

I feel overwhelmed. I've never had so many scheduled appointments in my life and I'm being forced into learning an independence I didn't know I have. E is gone for a few weeks and so I've been doing it all alone which hasn't been easy. It's difficult to take Kaiden from place to place and a lot of times I've had things scheduled in the middle of his nap time so he only has 30 minutes to sleep. This stuff has to be done, so I push though it but even when I'm home Kaiden desires my attention and I give it all to him because I feel bad that he's been dragged all around town. It scares me when I look at the clock and see that when I get home from one appointment, I have to feed and change Kaiden and then leave in another 15 minutes for the next. Despite the craziness, I'm at peace knowing that I will be able to hold my own when E gets deployed. Somehow there is a method to the madness and I always seem to make it everywhere on time, keep Kaiden happy and just have enough time to breathe. All this to say, please forgive me if I seem scattered or overwhelmed.

One of the appointments I had was a medical review for overseas clearance. I sat down in front of two doctors and they asked me questions about myself and Kaiden. This meeting covered the misunderstanding of Kaiden's speech delay. One of the doctor's apologized for how things unfolded but told me unfortunately, since his "delay" is in writing there is nothing we can do. All they can do now is send the files over to our gaining base in Germany and they will look it over and see if there is a program for Kaiden. I did look into it and there should be, but in the chance that they do not approve a plan for him we will have many issues...if you can think of it, please pray that the rest of this process goes smoothly. I'm not worried anymore because I can look back at my life and see how God has always worked things out for us (even if it always is last minute in my eyes lol).

I had a meeting tonight with a photography client interested in family portraits. I was so nervous (which looking back at it I don't know why I would be!) We met at Starbucks and immediately words started spilling out of my mouth about how I do things, why I do them and how I could turn their vision for portraits into tangible pictures...it's moments like that, that remind me to be confident in my craft. I have a genuine love for it and it shows so there should be no reason for anxiety.

I did decide to get a gym membership. Although it adds one more thing to my to do list each day, I'm glad I got it because I consider that me time. I tried out my first zumba class yesterday and I'm hooked! It's basically a dance fitness class to a wide variety of salsa beats. It's an hour long and although i'm sure I looked like a fool doing it, I definitely worked my leg muscles because I'm so sore today! It feels good to finally get back in the routine of working out again. Once again, I have more energy, I'm sleeping better and I'm in better moods.

Well, I'm sure there is more randomness I could write about but I need dinner and I'm ready for bed. Thanks to all who have mentioned to me that they are praying over me and my family. It's by God's grace I'm making it through these next few months! Once E gets back from his trip things will start moving much faster. Only 7 more weeks til we leave California....so crazy.