Rambling's

I've been editing and uploading pictures all day long. Things started to pile up with E's family here in town but now that they are gone we are getting right back on schedule. I have my first maternity session tomorrow, which I'm pretty pumped about! We will be taking them near some old redwood growth so I hope the photographs turn out just as perfectly as I'm envisioning them. 

Kaiden has been extremely fussy these past few days. Sometimes I find myself selfishly irritated because he has been waking up by the hour...but the minute I pick him up and rock him back to sleep, I realize how it's only for this short period of time that he needs and wants me. I'm praying that God will give me more compassion in my immediate reactions with Kaiden. I'm sure every parents faces this but I feel guilty for feeling that way sometimes.

I ended up dropping 2 of the 3 college classes I was taking because it was way too much to handle. I was taking 10 credits. I forgot how much work college is and accounting alone was killing me. Praise the Lord, I will be finished with my Intro. to Business class in a few weeks. I have no idea what my future plans are. If I keep taking just one class at a time, it will be forever until I finish my degree. However, even if I finish my degree I won't be able to really use it until the kids are all off to school. I want to stay home for every one of our kids and if, Lord willing, we have a few more, I won't be working for a while. I still have this deep desire to study graphic design. I think I would be good at it and I wish I had the tools to learn more. Courses are so inexpensive here in California but with E working full time and him being gone for job training next year, I have no idea what I would do with Kaiden. There is no way I could go to school even part time because that would require me to rely on sometime to consistently watch Kaiden...or daycare which we don't want to do and can't afford. There's lots to think and pray about...

Taken at Muir Woods. Another piece of vegetation often overlooked.