The Struggle

My heart hurts. There are a laundry list of things going on in my life and it's all finally started to pile up. Some burdens directly affect me and some are just things I wish I had the power to change. I'm reminded of the verse "Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." This is yet another instance where God is teaching me what it means to have a DAILY dependence on Him. As E reminded me yesterday, this world is not our home. We can get married, buy a house, make it comfortable, make friends but ultimately we are nothing more than a puzzle piece trying to force ourselves into a spot that doesn't fit. I am reminded that there will always be something more our flesh wants. Old problems will resurface. New problems are created. The medical problems, family/friend drama, gossip, hurt feelings, unfulfilled desires and exhaustion are all reminders of our imperfect world. Ultimately all of this points back to God and brings Him glory in ways my human mind can't even comprehend, but until I meet Him face to face I will continue to push the struggle. Because the struggle is a means of growing closer to Him and knowing Him more. I must remember that the aching of my heart only points back to a deeper aching of my need for a Savior. I must trust that His plan is perfect and it's not up to me what is thrown my way, but it is up to me to decide how I will react to it all.

... but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. 

Isaiah 40:31 (NIV)